Change.......

[Bobute]

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly
secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no
longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and
exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is
power." - Alan Cohen


How many times in life have we "released the familar" because it was
no longer meaningful? More times than I can count, I know. It may have
been a slow, painful release, but many times that is the only way to
let go.
Being pulled in two different directions with our hearts telling us
one thing and our heads telling us something else. Making excuses
because it is more easy than walking away.
Unfamilar can be a scary place. Load up four children, a dog and a
cat in an old car in a blizzard and leave town because you cannot take
anymore, that is scary!
On the other hand, not to just do it was even more scary. I felt in
control, powerful, with a can do attitude. Blizzard, so what. I am
ready, we are out of here.
Careless, maybe, but always with regard to what was the lesser of
the two evils. I could not have lived with myself if I had not tired. I
can not live with myself if I do not continue to try now.
We owe it to ourselves to search, find, seek a meaningful life. If
you cannot find something meaningful than go back over your needs with
a fine tooth comb until you do.
Its all there, waiting to be found. If someone had said this to mE
before I would have given it some thought, maybe. Then I would have
said to self, "right," who am I kidding. How will change make a
difference if I do not feel loved?
Will anyone love mE more because I changed? Will I find
understanding, compassion, a hand to hold because I changed? Maybe, but
until I understood myself better, had compassion for myself more, loved
mE for who I am, no one or nothing could change a thing.
It all began with mE and will end with mE. The rest will follow.

Autumn blessings
Bobute, mE xoxox